Ho hum

I think I may be burnt out. Or depressed. Something. I better not get hung up on definitions or symptoms. Anyway. I’ve lost all joy in my job and I don’t even care to try to make any changes that might make things better. I’ve had major surgery this year, too, and maybe that’s contributing to my feeling that everything’s pointless. The healing seems to be progressing acceptably - at least according to my doctors - but I wish I could regain my joie de vivre. Or find a new purpose. Heck, even a new hobby. I thought I might experiment here - anonymously - because I don’t really want suggestions from my friends, colleagues and usual network. Maybe I’m not expressing myself well but when I have tried to talk about how I’m feeling people act awkward and don’t seem to know what to say. At least if I can just write about what I’m feeling here, it’s some sort of outlet, right?